Randomly thought (while in toilet changing pads, how inspiring) how come i never really succeed in whatever i started out to do. This blog no count becox i can't tell if it's successful (okay maybe a teeny-weeny tiny tiny little bit lol) and plus i didn't start this blog to make it successful so no count.
Like i went to Singapore poly, BizAd, majoring in retail becox i want to learn how to start and manage a shop of my own when i graduate. But i didn't complete the studies, that's one thing.
THING IS, i've got out of school for.. FIVE freaking years already. FIVE, FREAKING, YEARS!!! And i've never really done anything right to achieve what i started out thinking i wanna do.
Tried doing up blogshop to sell things when i was flying.. It flopped cox i sold the items at provision shop profit margin. Like if buy $4, i'd sell at $4.50. Cox i thought to myself that there's no other cost involved since i fly for free. Haha.
I KNOW!!! I don't know why i so stupid!!! Don't ask, i don't want to talk about that already. Lol. It is solid proof of me being mentally-disabled. Lol.
Then i got distracted by other things, and went back to selling stuff on blogshop again. That wasn't so bad but i drifted off when i was shifting house. And then other things happen and i just didn't go back to keep up the blogshop.
Anyway i must say that i have the most supportive boyfriend ever. He tries to help in whichever way he can when i wanna do something. I can never be more thankful for that =)) He's always meticulous, by that i also mean more long-winded. Haha! And he's more weary and always looking into details, which is the total opposite of me becox i like to head-plunge into things. First i do and then i think of how to resolve problem if problem arise. And they always do.
But most of the time i don't resolve anything, i give up when things turn bad.
But i guess i'm no longer young and i need to own things. Things that make me feel proud of myself. Things that can sustain my growth in life to be bigger things.
Okay i think i got it sorted out half way through this post. Three things.
I'm going to have to stay focus on that three things and STILL, just do it! Beat metal while hot. Fail while i still can afford to. Lol.
Bye. Lol. No lah, i'm not gonna leave you right after making use of you while i think-type and finally have it figured out. Haha. So i'm gonna insert some pictures to reward you all for thinking with me *shamelessly force people to look at me as if they very desperately want to*
Like i went to Singapore poly, BizAd, majoring in retail becox i want to learn how to start and manage a shop of my own when i graduate. But i didn't complete the studies, that's one thing.
THING IS, i've got out of school for.. FIVE freaking years already. FIVE, FREAKING, YEARS!!! And i've never really done anything right to achieve what i started out thinking i wanna do.
Tried doing up blogshop to sell things when i was flying.. It flopped cox i sold the items at provision shop profit margin. Like if buy $4, i'd sell at $4.50. Cox i thought to myself that there's no other cost involved since i fly for free. Haha.
I KNOW!!! I don't know why i so stupid!!! Don't ask, i don't want to talk about that already. Lol. It is solid proof of me being mentally-disabled. Lol.
Then i got distracted by other things, and went back to selling stuff on blogshop again. That wasn't so bad but i drifted off when i was shifting house. And then other things happen and i just didn't go back to keep up the blogshop.
Anyway i must say that i have the most supportive boyfriend ever. He tries to help in whichever way he can when i wanna do something. I can never be more thankful for that =)) He's always meticulous, by that i also mean more long-winded. Haha! And he's more weary and always looking into details, which is the total opposite of me becox i like to head-plunge into things. First i do and then i think of how to resolve problem if problem arise. And they always do.
But most of the time i don't resolve anything, i give up when things turn bad.
But i guess i'm no longer young and i need to own things. Things that make me feel proud of myself. Things that can sustain my growth in life to be bigger things.
Okay i think i got it sorted out half way through this post. Three things.
I'm going to have to stay focus on that three things and STILL, just do it! Beat metal while hot. Fail while i still can afford to. Lol.
Bye. Lol. No lah, i'm not gonna leave you right after making use of you while i think-type and finally have it figured out. Haha. So i'm gonna insert some pictures to reward you all for thinking with me *shamelessly force people to look at me as if they very desperately want to*
My $2 top from Boon Keng area =DDD Long wig how?
Happy green skirt with a thousand pleats from TheBlogShop =D
Short wig better? Okay i think i'd stop wearing wigs to camwhore it's getting old. Lol.
Sidetracking a bit, i think seriously, seriously, there are more poses than just half bending your leg and touch your shoulder and act all high-street chic -.- Same face i see everywhere, i sian.
Denim layered dress from TheBlogShop too =D
How's the red lips looking for you? Not bad right? Lol.
So i'd need to do some things. Three things. We'd talk about it again *act cool* And i can fail again, but i cannot stop trying. Cox that's what i wanna do. And i want it to be done. And i have to do it myself. Cox that's the right thing to do. And now should be the right time.
Besides.. After wasting time doing all the wrong thing, this is where the love is =) Where i get all the attention *happy* and where i can age with people who reads me. Hahaha. Quite romantic hor?
Gotta get out of the cycle of doing the right thing at the wrong time/ with the wrong person. Now it's just me, and everyone who cares. Me, working for people i care about. Me working for me =) There'd be a time where i'd find myself grossly old, like when i'm passed the 2_. So i need to for once sit down and think serious shit becox i'm about half way between 2_ and 30. Lol.
Besides.. After wasting time doing all the wrong thing, this is where the love is =) Where i get all the attention *happy* and where i can age with people who reads me. Hahaha. Quite romantic hor?
Gotta get out of the cycle of doing the right thing at the wrong time/ with the wrong person. Now it's just me, and everyone who cares. Me, working for people i care about. Me working for me =) There'd be a time where i'd find myself grossly old, like when i'm passed the 2_. So i need to for once sit down and think serious shit becox i'm about half way between 2_ and 30. Lol.
Thank you for reading, sincerely =) If i have no where to write about these thoughts, or i write it somewhere where no one gives me the attention and credit that i'm actually capable of thinking (apparently not so proven in this post cox it's all about how i fail cox i don't think that much) i'd feel depressed and unloved and unmotivated cox no one to witness my determination. Lol.
Oh man, feeling all fuzzy and fluffy in the heart although it looks like a whole lot of nonsense. Having people keen in my nonsense, is the best feeling. Hahaha =D Thank you, you you you and you =))
Bye bye!